(#10) The Past Sea Of Everything

The sea of dark swallow her thoughts
Her lover a blur as she looks up from below
And she finds sanctuary within the black.

Leave me behind, leave me.
She won't come back
Like a fish released from a tank
Into the sea.
Dangerous it may be, the sea
Yet happier she is within.
The tank was her danger
Now she is free.

She finds her soul
And steals mine.
A heart she wears
For the heart she breaks.
Innocence she gained, leaving her lover.
Hurt, her door-gift.
That smile she hangs on her lips.
A murderer, cry with me.
A murderous smile.

My killer, my love.
I require to stop the pain.
A new love with her, should it bloom
Will numb my pains with more of it
But I am willing, no, am not willing
But I can try.
My tears form a river.
Shed more for sadness?
Negligible to the waters I created.
She will not swim in them.
She'd rather the sea of black
They give her joy.
Like spiting my providence
Biting the hand that fed her.
Soul-food. I kept none for myself.

She chucked me on the shelf
When the new toy-store opened.
Was I the old doll?
Or did I have such a black heart?

A life she has, happy.
Oh, the contrary for me.