(#27) Fire And Ice

Strike deep
With every word you say-
That is exactly what you do to me.
Your attraction is overwhelming,

It plays with my mind, you know,
Just the strings you pull
To control the puppet in my heart.
A pull, a tug.

With every smile, pout,
You toss my soul on a rough ocean
And I stay afloat, swallowing water just because
I love to take care of you.

I spend so much of my time thinking
About you, what pieces to play
To get you closer and
Closer to me-

Should I take you out on a date?
Kiss you under the stars?
Should I shower you with flowers and gifts,
Will you like that too?

I love you so much, I will not
Hesitate the chase for your heart.
Do not hold it back- wait,
Who is that boy you are talking to?

Yes, him. I merely took my eyes off you
For a blink.

Your smile is poison, his smile cuts
Deeper than any knife can.
Your heart, I will not admit that
You look like you have forgotten me.

Suddenly, I am alone,
Winter returns to my quarters.
You disappear, the both of you.
I don't want to know what

You are doing with him.
I wish I could swallow it
But I'm choking, trying.
Why, why won't you see

The things I do for you
Just to make your life smooth.
I shatter myself behind your back
And lay the pieces over patches

Of darkness and rainy days
So you won't feel the rough road,
Or the searing heat on your feet,
Or the cold in the air.

My work-
It effaces in the wind with
Every expression and word you
Say to him.

It makes me feel so neglected-
I can't give you every materialistic object
In this world. What flowers or chocolates daily,
But I can give you a loving heart that cares

For you, and with you. I am that heart.
Can he do that for you? Will he?
Can he sacrifice himself so much for you?
I will. I promise I will.

More than anything in this world,
I just wish you would open your eyes, dear,
And shut your heart out to everybody,
But me.

It hurts to love you in times like this,
But I still do.


Glass will shatter under fire and ice, but not me.